The Greatest of Teachers

won't hesitate
to leave you there

 by yourself

 chained to fate

171.Is the reward worth the risk?

Sometimes.

172.For you personally, what makes today worth living?

Family.

173.What have you done in the last year that makes you proud?

I’ve tried.

174.What did you learn recently that changed the way you live?

You can’t count on anyone.

175.What is your fondest memory from the past three years?

Chicago.

176.What are the primary components of a happy life?

Love and Peace

177.How would the world be different if you were never born?

Uhm…

178.What is your favorite song and why?

Gary Allan – Life ain’t always beautiful… cause it isn’t

179.With the resources you have right now, what can you do to bring yourself closer to your goal?

Keep trying

180.What are your top three priorities?

1. Career

2. Marriage

3. Kids

181.Why do we idolize sports players?

I dunno, I idolize anyone who has dedication to be the best in their field.

182.What is the nicest thing someone has ever done for you?

I think the nicest thing a person can do is be there when you need them… Different people have done this for me at different times.

183.What do you see when you look into the future?

I can’t see anything.

184.What makes you angry?  Why?

Everything. Lol. Mostly, apathy or people with bad morals.

185.What is the most valuable life lesson you learned from your parents?

Not everyone thinks like me.

186.What does love feel like?

Today it feels like a broken heart. But love has so many forms.

187.What are your favorite simple pleasures?

A bubble bath and a book!

188.If you could go back in time and tell a younger version of yourself one thing, what would you tell?

Don’t settle.

189.What do you do to deliberately impress others?

I try to be witty… that’s the only thing I can think of.

190.What will you never do?

Cheat.

191.Excluding romantic relationships, who do you love?

My family and friends.

192.What is your earliest childhood memory?

My dad teaching me to tie my shoes or dancing in the dining room to brc.

193.What book has had the greatest influence on your life?

Oooo tough one. Maybe “The Yellow Wallpaper” or “The Bell Jar” It’s hard to say.

194.What three questions do you wish you knew the answers to?

I’m not answering this publicly.

195.What is the greatest peer pressure you’ve ever felt?

The pressure to let myself down.

196.What’s the biggest lie you once believed was true?

I believed that my friend’s step dad murdered someone for 16 years of my life! Total fabrication! lol

197.In your lifetime, what have you done that hurt someone else?

I’ve intentionally hurt people who I’ve felt wronged by. Sometimes justifiably, sometimes not. It has been a long time, but in the past I broke some hearts in anger.

198.What’s the best part of growing older?

Uh… lower car insurance??

199.What’s been on your mind most lately?

Getting over a certain someone and getting a damn job!

200.What do you think is worth waiting for?

The afterlife. lol

201.What chances do you wish you had taken?

Sometimes I wish I had stayed in London and never came home.

202.Where else would you like to live?  Why?

Ha, uh, London, actually. I love London.

203.What motivates you to go to work each day?

The desire to brighten my residents’ days

204.What do you wish you had done differently?

I wish I had more fun in college.

205.What is your greatest strength and your greatest weakness?

I’m loud and stubborn.

206.When was the last time you lied?  What did you lie about?

I honestly can’t remember.

207.What made you smile this week?

Not too much…. Haha. Last night a friend cheered  me up by joining me for some pool. Tonight another friend surprised me by waiting by my car when I got off work. It’s nice to feel wanted. =]

208.What do you do with the majority of your money?

Pay bills. (Especially my loans)

209.What motivates you to be your best?

Personal satisfaction.

210.When was the last time you lost your temper?  About what?

Today. I felt attacked.

211.What will you never give up on?

People who need me.

212.When you look into the past, what do you miss the most?

I miss Joel.

213.How would you describe the past year of your life in one sentence?

A difficult transition and a time of growth.

214.What is the most spontaneous thing you’ve ever done?

I set out to drive across country one day just to spend a few hours with my boyfriend. I ended up crying in a Denny’s parking lot in Michigan instead. Uberspontaneous. lol

215.What makes you uncomfortable?

I’m not comfortable with my own self.

216.If you had to move 3000 miles away, what one thing would you miss the most?

My family

217.What worries you about the future?

That I might not have one.

218.What one ‘need’ and one ‘want’ will you strive to achieve in the next twelve months?

I need to make a change and I want it to be for the better.

219.What life lessons did you have to experience firsthand before you fully understood them?

Pretty much all of them.

220.Do you like the city or town you live in?  Why or why not?

It is beautiful but I’m ready for a change.

221.What’s the best part of being you?

I get to be part of the best family ever.

222.When you look back over the past month, what single moment stands out?

I had the worst day ever this month. On the same day I had a friend tell me that they would literally take a bullet for me. It was seriously a pick-me-up.

223.What do you do to relieve stress?

Hahaha… bubble bath?

224.What is your happiest memory?

It hasn’t happened yet

225.What is your saddest memory?

Saying goodbye to Joel

226.What would you like to change?

My life.

227.How many people do you love?

I love tons of people. I can’t count them all.

228.What’s the best decision you’ve ever made?

Going to London.

229.What’s your favorite true story that you enjoy sharing with others?

I don’t tell my favorite story anymore.

230.Right now, at this moment, what do you want most?

I just wish things would make sense and be easy.

231.What are you waiting for?  How are you writing your life’s story?

I’m not waiting. I’m writing it very slowly but not very deliberately.

232.What makes love last?

Communication and trust. At least, I assume so…

233.What good comes from suffering?

Humbleness.

234.What’s the most important lesson you’ve learned in the last year?

“you can’t always get what you want”

235.Based on your current daily actions and routines, where would you expect to be in five years?

I honestly don’t know.

236.What was your last major accomplishment?

Graduating college?

237.Through all of life’s twists and turns who has been there for you?

My family.

238.What or who has been distracting you?

People I’ve lost recently.

239.What are you looking forward to in the upcoming week?

A possible date…but I’m working so much, so I can’t really say that for certain.

240.Who is your mentor and what have you learned from them?

My former professor. I’ve learned everything from them. There is nothing off limits.

241.What are you uncertain about?

What am I certain about?

242.What do you think about when you lie awake in bed?

EVERYTHING!

243.What’s something most people don’t know about you?

Most people don’t know the story behind the tattoo on my back.

244.When you have a random hour of free time, what do you usually do?

It depends. My favorite thing is probably just to listen to music or read and take a bubble bath.

245.What makes you weird?

I pretty much never wear shoes unless I’m going somewhere in public. And I hate socks.

246.If you could relive yesterday what would you do differently?

Nothing.

247.What do you do over and over again that you hate doing?

I judge people way too much.

248.Would you rather your child be less attractive and extremely intelligent or extremely attractive and less intelligent?

I’d take what I could get.

249.What white lies do you often tell?

I’m bad at confrontation so I will pretend to not be upset sometimes when I am.

250.What is the biggest change you have made in your life in the last year?

I’ve decided what I want out of life and realized I deserve it.