Final Chapter

So this is how the story went

I met someone by accident
That blew me away
That blew me away

It was in the darkest of my days
When you took my sorrow and you took my pain
And buried them away, you buried them away

You dropped me off at the train station

 put a kiss on top of my head

watched me wave

you watched me wave

 Then went on home to your sky-scrapers

 and neon lights and waiting papers

 that you call home

You call it home.

111.When you help someone do you ever think, “What’s in it for me?”

Yeah. I think everyone thinks that every now and then.

112.What is your greatest challenge?

My own stubbornness.

113.How do you know when it’s time to continue holding on or time to let go?

Ha. I don’t. I’m a crab to the core, if ya love something, hold it tight, even if you lose an arm in the process. lol

114.How do you define success?

A person’s own happiness and fulfillment with what you’ve done.

115.If someone could tell you the exact day and time you are going to die, would you want them to tell you?

NO way.

116.If I could grant you one wish what would you wish for?

A guy who is perfect in my own opinion with great genes so we can have some babies =]. I’d wish for it without hesitation.

117.What have you read online recently that inspired you?

Giveadamn.com

118.Why do religions that advocate unity divide the human race?

Because there is human error in all religions, clearly.

119.If you could live one day of your life over again, what day would you choose?

Probably the day I graduated. I have such a great support group. That, or a secret day with someone I love that is probably only precious to me =]

120.What can money not buy?

CAN’T BUY ME LOVE!!

121.If you left this life tomorrow, how would you be remembered?

It depends. I think I polarize people. People who don’t like me will probably remember me as loud and obnoxious. People who love me will remember me as passionate and head strong in my beliefs. Everyone will remember me as stubborn and out-spoken. =]

122.Beyond the titles that others have given you, who are you?

Who needs titles? I am only what I am in this moment and in the past. And the perspective changes from each angle, so I refuse to confine myself. (Wow, that was very liberal arts of me…)

123.If you could live the next 24 hours and then erase it and start over just once, what would you do?

I’d ignore my pride and do what I want.

124.Is it possible to know the truth without challenging it first?

Yes. I believe in instincts.

125.What word best describes the way you’ve spent the last month of your life?

Transitioning.

126.What makes everyone smile?

Nothing. There isn’t one thing that can make everyone smile.

127.What do you owe yourself?

A little respect would be nice.

128.What would your ‘priceless’ Mastercard-style commercial be?

One trip to the ER from an older brother; $1,500

10 years of free hair cuts and colors; $1,100

Having a brother and sister who’ve got your back? Priceless.

(That is only one of many =)

129.Can you think of a time when impossible became possible?

No.

130.Why do you matter?

Because I exist.

131.How have you changed in the last five years?

I’ve grown up. Enough said.

132.What are you sure of in your life?

I can’t think of anything I’m sure of. It just seems like everything is always in transit.

133.When you think of ‘home,’ what, specifically, do you think of?

The house I grew up in.

134.What’s the difference between settling for things and accepting the way things are?

Settling is accepting the way things are when you shouldn’t.

135.How many of your friends would you trust with your life?

Wow. What an eye opener. Maybe one?

136.What’s your definition of heaven?

I don’t have one.

137.What is your most prized possession?

Ha. I’m going to have to say my bed. Or my records. That is a really tough call.

138.How would you describe yourself in one sentence?

I’m a roller coaster of passion and emotion.

139.What stands between you and happiness?

I’m just ready to settle down and play house and teacher, honestly.

140.What makes a person beautiful?

Good looks, duh! Lol And of course an open heart and a kind spirit.

141.Is there ever a time when giving up makes sense?

I’m not a huge fan of giving up, but yes.

142.What makes you proud?

I’m proud of my stubbornness when it comes to what I believe in.

143.How do you find the strength to do what you know in your heart is right?

Ha. Well, after the week I’ve had, I’ve had to do a lot of strength searching. Mostly, I try to do right by people, especially if the y can’t ask for it themselves. My heart knows what is right, so I just put my faith forward and try to keep my brain from having fear.

144.Where do you find peace?

I like to isolate to find peace. (Especially by being outside and just taking it in.) I can also find it in my family and friends. It just depends.

145.When have you worked hard and loved every minute of it?

Haha… this could really go two ways!! Hehe But, I love teaching. It truly makes me happy.

146.How short would your life have to be before you would start living differently today?

I think it is short enough!

147.Is it better to have loved and lost or to have never loved at all?

Nope.

148.What would you do if you made a mistake and somebody died?

I’d be a hot mess…. I guess it depends on the circumstance. Scary question.

149.Who do you trust and why?

I can’t say I fully trust anyone right now. The people I’ve truly trusted are gone, which makes it hard for me to give my full self. I suppose I keep a part of myself from pretty much everyone. I guess I’m scared they’ll take it away with them… hm… interesting.

150.If you were forced to eliminate every physical possession from your life with the exception of what could fit into a single backpack, what would you put in it?

Pictures of loved ones, my rosary, my phone and charger, my ipod, Joel’s lighter, my class ring, and my first edition “Emma” to read. I’m not very possession oriented. Other than my records and bed…. Which wouldn’t fit!

151.When does silence convey more meaning than words?

Silence conveys just as much as words. The absence of communication is, in itself, a part of communication.

152.How do you spend the majority of your free time?

It really depends. I’m into a little of everything… depends on the day

153.Who do you think of first when you think of ‘success?’

A rich white male. Ugh, so ashamed of myself!! lol

154.What did you want to be when you grew up?

A teacher or a country singer. (Or the wife of Billy Ray Cyrus)

155.How will today matter in five years from now?

It’s just a grain of sand on my square foot of life.

156.How have you helped someone else recently?

I stopped someone from being abused, and I did it all by myself.

157.What is your greatest skill?

I’m tenacious! Is that a skill?

158.Do you see to believe or believe to see?

I have to see it to believe it... and even then, I only see what I want to sometimes.

I'm really not too worried about formatting this to match the other stuff because I'm not far from being done with the questions... and I'm pretty positive that the few readers I have don't really care. It's officially 2am so I should be sleeping. It is just hard to sleep with a heavy heart.

And I wish I could lay down beside you
When the day was done
And wake up to your face against the morning sun
But like everything I've ever known
You'll disappear one day
So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
And I could spend my whole life hiding my heart away