can anyone feel me at all?

I'm sorry if you feel

like I let you down.

Can you tell me

 what have I done so wrong to you?

Tell me what am I supposed to do?

I should be loved by you.

That I know is true.

But I can't breathe when you're around.

I should be held at night.

That I know is right.

I can't breathe when you're around.

You're too scared.

Scared of it all. But I get the feeling I'm talking to a wall.

Can you hear me at all?

My world was shaking. My mind was quaking.

My heart kept breaking.

I threw it against the wall.

 I've already expressed my undying love for Blue October once, so I'm not going to lay it on too thick, I'll let the video stand for itself.

Three days off in a row felt really long!! I'm torn, I'm ready to go full time and get paid, but now that I've experienced an actual part time schedule I'm amazed at how much time I'm theoretically supposed to have to do what I want! Three days off felt pretty nice. I had a blast geocaching today, although I didn't find anything! I got a lot of flack but a couple friends went with me... and refused to go again! Well... I guess one of them said he MIGHT consider it. But not likely. =] I'm such a dork. I love good, clean, fun! Maybe sometime next week I'll take my camera along and do some photography and hunting... It'll give me a chance to be arty and outdoorsy! I'm certainly a cross between the two... even though I'm quite clumsy, I do try. I have much to do tomorrow morning and afternoon so I'm sure my day will fly by. Then tomorrow at two it is back to the everyday stress. I'm just thankful that I got to spend so much time outdoors the last few days! It has been the perfect weather, in my humble opinion.