Thursday, April 21, 2011

April Showers



Today is a pretty rough one in my neck of the woods. It marks 3 years since my neighbor/brother/best friend killed himself due to depression caused by a drug addiction. It is always hard to be real with yourself about life issues of this magnatude, but I'm learning to try. People leave you in so many ways, and many of them aren't your choice. Suicide is (by far) the most difficult loss to cope with. Some days you blame them, others you blame yourself. One day you can think of them and smile and laugh, and the next you burst into tears without a definite reason. I'm not quite sure how I'm feeling today. Sad, I guess. And afraid for others in my life that I love. I'm also happy that I had such a wonderful person in my life who shaped me in ways that are undeniable. Growing up with someone to share my hopes, dreams, and fears with was so very important. Dating was more of a challenge with such a protective male around, but he certainly kept the creepers away and warned me of the no-gooders. As a friend, he was my mechanic, my "pool boy" and the only pit crew I ever wanted. He is certainly loved and missed, especially on this dreary April day.
Hell Yeah - Thank You http://youtu.be/jiveL3VfglM


Drug use is a very serious issue. It is easy to judge and point a finger and say "I'd never do something like that." Really, you might already do something "like" drugs. Maybe you smoke, or gamble, or overeat, or maybe you clean too much and just can't stop yourself. Drugs and alcohol are just less acceptable forms of a greater problem called addiction.  It is so important to get help before you get to the breaking point and can no longer cope. http://24houraddictionhelp.org/

Depression exists. If you need help, get help. I know that it is so much easier said than done. I really realize how preachy this sounds. But it is just so important. It helps the depressed person as well as their loved ones. http://www.depressionsupporthelp.com/

Most of all, it is important to support friends and loved ones through life's trials, even when you're upset, be supportive. Regret is an ugly word, add a death to the equation and it can be unbearable. If you're concerned about a person, don't give up on them. It is likely that they have already given up on themselves.

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